My Week is Over, Finally

If it could somehow go wrong this week it has. Yet, I know that some people in this world have it way worse. I have a car, a house, a nice warm bed, and a nice place to further my education. Many don't get opportunities like this. I am thankful and blessed. I live a life that many dream of, when I turn around and dream of a better life.

Ignite is working on filling our School's Food Pantry (SNAC) for the college students who are homeless or need help having enough food. My small group went and picked up bags in a neighborhood today. There were a good few who had food for us to take back, but I'm amazed how much food people gave out of the ones we picked up. It will help SNAC out a lot, especially with Christmas & Thanksgiving right around the corner.

I'm overwhelmed with school and personal issues. I think the main thing I'm trying to grasp is how to not be everyone's therapist. I love listening to others, and helping them out. I just have hit a wall. I honestly do care for all the people I talk to; however, I feel as if I need someone to talk to too. I feel as if I am barely together right now. I can barely think, and tears will come. I don't like feeling this way at all. I know everything will be okay, and I know that it is completely normal to not be happy 100% of the time. There has just been a lot of stuff happen in one week. I just want things to be back to normal with me. It will all happen over time. Nothing that I can't handle. God is still encouraging me. The other day I came back from work, and had to go print something when I arrived back on campus. So I was walking and texting (so looking down) through one of the buildings, and I almost walked right into a big white board sign. I giggled because if I had actually walked into that thing...I would have died laughing. I did meet a freshman business major out of it. His name was Matt. So always networking...life of a business major.

*inserting more life problems mentally*

I am thankful for my:
Family, Friends, Jobs, Education, Sunshine, Oxygen, Loving God, struggles, Kleenex Tissues (I'm suffering from sinuses/allergies), Puppies, Art, Freedom of Religion & Speech, all my amazing opportunities to meet new people and see new places, a fully functioning brain, a warm bed, heat, and my wonderful life...even when I think I can't go on. God gives me the strength to carry on. I am thankful for that the most.

xoxoxo
Ciao.
Sarah

I May Not Know Where I'm Going, But the View is Nice

Surrounded by so much stuff, I feel as if I can write it out that I will be somehow better. So ta-da, here I am. Today I went to the Mint Museum in Charlotte, NC. It was amazing. I love art, and wish I were that talented. However, I like my talents. I may not even know them all, but I am thankful for learning more about myself everyday.

Something I am learning is patience. It is difficult, yet it is something I should learn for every situation that I must face. It is a challenge, especially when I cannot see the big picture or the outcome. I am used to a set goal, and a plan on how to get it.

I am also learning that I know a lot of people can see my whole life via Pinterest, Facebook, Twitter, Blogspot, Instagram, and other misc. websites. Nothing bad, but I just have to be aware that tabs are being kept on me. I have just hit roadblocks because sometimes I feel like posting something when I shouldn't. It's never something bad, but it usually is something for me to express the emotion I am feeling. I just don't want to post something that would make life difficult for someone else. I think that is something that most do not think about anymore. We really should censor our thoughts on the Internet. Every tweet, blog, status, and whatever else is posted on this worldwide web can and is used to judge us. Many people don't get certain jobs because of what they post on the Internet. I also have to be aware that many of the kids from my youth group at church, coworkers, managers, and important role models read what I post.

However, I am stressed out. There are never enough hours in a day or seconds in a minute for me day. So I stay up late, but regardless that would most likely happen. This semester is totally different than my freshman fall semester. This year there is still drama, but a different kind. I am happy that at least it is different. My classes are slightly harder, but I know where to turn to get help. I just hit roadblocks with my professors at times.

I will say that in all of the chaos, I have gotten deeper and stronger in my faith. That is the main thing in this all. Learning to just 100% trust God. It will all be okay.

xoxoxo
Ciao.
-Sarah

Hello, Long Time No See

SO sophomore year has already started, and I am more than halfway through this semester. Time is a funny little thing, and I swear it keeps getting faster.

At this step in my life, I feel as if it's confusing. This past week has been full of struggles from emotional, physical, and financial. (However that is the life of a College Kid with their heart on their sleeve)
I am learning my place in the "friend zone." It is all fun and games until either person forgets their place. Especially when the guy has a girlfriend. I'm so scared that I am going to mess something up. However, I am being a friend while being cautious, as I should.

I am just thanking God that I have these struggles. Even when answering the question "Are you okay?" or "Is everything fine?" may seem redundant, I am just happy that I have struggles to make me grow as a person. It may not be fun at this exact moment, but I can guarantee I am going to laugh when I see the bigger picture. I know God had a sense of humor because of my week though. Just the random things that have happened after I feel like I can't go anymore, He gives me something to make me smile and encourage me. I live a blessed life too because somewhere someone is having a week worse than mine.

Don't forget about Daylight Savings!!!

xoxoxo Ciao.
Sarah