Life is Such a Beautiful World Wind

I could not be happier. Everything that made me feel as if I were drowning this semester has come full circle. I am at awe, and could not be more delighted on how much God has been doing this semester. I would do it all over tomorrow to be at the point where I am today. The tears are of pure happiness and surrender. I could not be more thrilled with the thoughts in my head.

I think I am suppose to be a missionary. My old advisor laid out a lifestyle for me. I did not like it at all. I do not want to work in a local & international company down the road for the rest of my life. I don't want missions to be just a summer project. I want it to be a lifestyle, exactly how it should be. I am aware that I could do this and work a job as well. I love the business world. It is an element of mine, but I love all the children that steal my heart. I love speaking Spanish, and seeing people's eyes light up.

I have talked to so many people recently at the place where I go swing dancing. Most of them want to be missionaries too. I love watching them talk about where their heart is at. I can relate to them when words cannot explain their thoughts on it all. I truly wish I could express the feeling and thoughts, yet there are simply no words.

 I have taken on this mind set of peacefulness. It is calming, and everything feels right. I have re-evaluated my friendships with people. I try to not grumble when people want me to listen because I realize that there is comfort in having someone to listen. Even if you don't take the advice.

I spent my late afternoon to mid evening sitting in a coffee shop today. I wanted to get out of my dorm,  and I felt like I just needed to go to this coffee shop. I talked to many different customers and staff. It was nice just being present and interacting with the people around me. I wish more people would speak to those around them. A common thing I have been getting recently is that I remind people of someone they know. I wish I could meet the person everyone thinks I am. I kind of regret not eating a real meal for supper. I had 2 cups of coffee and a cupcake.

I am ecstatic. I cannot wish for anything more perfect than the thought of being able to make missions a lifestyle. I do doubt it a little, but it goes away. I start to think about my family and friends, but I know it won't be a goodbye for forever. Plus I like planes, and I know I can always fly home if I ever need to do so.

Finals are coming up this week, so prayers would be greatly appreciated for everyone! :)

Thanks!
xoxoxoxo
Sarah

Scatter Brains After Finals & Other Random Adventures

Today is my last day that I have to take finals for my 1st semester in college. All I have to do is be at the Business School by 3pm, turn in my final, and I am done with my 1st semester! :) I am super excited!

I am still having some issues to deal with at college, but that is normal. I cannot possibly be everyones friend and not everybody is going to like me. That is a hard concept for me. I was not a "popular" kid in high school, but I was known around all grades. Teachers loved me, and I had an AWESOME group of friends who are still my good friends even though we are all at different colleges. :) I know that there were some girls that did not like me in high school or my church, but it did not bother me because I was happy with my support group. Now that my support group is not physically here, I feel like I have acquaintances on campus, not friends. It is just difficult because rumors are going around, and I cannot justify them because no one cares to listen to my side. Oh well, this is just the real world and I have to take a stance and show everyone who I am.

I apologize that I have not blogged recently, my life has been super stressful, but I am going to try to get better! :)

I am part of a college ministry called Ignite. They are such an awesome, Godly group of people to be around. It is comforting that I have friends who are now like a college youth group to me. Our  fearless leader....director.... asked me to be a leader next year. I have no idea if I am up for it, but I hope I choose the right decision. However, I intended to go transfer for Fall 2012...and if I want to be a leader in Ignite, I need to stay at the college that I am at. I wanted to transfer to pursue an International Business degree. But I am beginning to see that I like marketing. If I do stay to take on a leadership role I will plan on going into marketing.

I also have a friend in the hospital. He had a large non-cancerous mass removed from an area around is pancreas, he is getting better, but it is a slow process. So please say a prayer for my friend that he recovers quickly! :) Thanks!