Sunday, December 30, 2012

Life at this moment

I go to Passion in two days! I am so excited! :)
My life has been a chaotic downward spiral I feel. Yet I am beginning to see the horizon. It will be all better in a couple of days. I just need to fling myself into God. My heart has felt so dark and lost. It is a weird feeling to actually feel the presence of your heart again. I know I will be myself again.

I am just at a loss of the people around me. I know they are trying to help, but I am struggling with that.

But Passion is a couple of days away. I get to see a new change in scenery and I know that will help me realize how I need to change.

xoxoxo
Sarah

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Home

Back at mi casa. I love not having school, but there is not as much freedom as there is at school at home. I do enjoy seeing my mom and my brother. However dealing with Christmas shoppers at work can wear a person down. I finally get to take time and play with paint and ribbon. It makes me so happy to create things. I passed my Macro class. Which I am stoked about! I feel like God is changing my heart right now. I cannot wait to see what will come of this, but I know that if I can put my trust in him I'll be okay. Ever since I have been home, I have felt like it's been a party of one. Nothing wrong with that, but I don't feel like everyone is on the same page with me. I have started to outgrow some friends, and that is difficult. I know amazing things will come out of this. I just have to find comfort in that.

Ciao!
xoxoxoxo
Sarah

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Peter Plays the Piano

I got to meet a charming young man this morning while I was out running errands. Peter Rosset is an amazing piano player. His favorite composer is Mozart. He has a Youtube Channel with videos of him playing. His username is Rosset4Music. Peter has a big heart. He is a pleasure to talk to. He told me he wanted 1,000,000 views for Christmas. Please go check him out!!! :)

https://www.youtube.com/user/rosset4music

Thanks!
Ciao.
xoxoxoxo
Sarah

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

It's only Tuesday

I just want this week to be over with. I'm stressing about exams, and everything seems to be right in front of my face mocking me. It sucks, I am not going to lie. However, I know I am going to learn something from this all. Everything will all be okay once I figure out my thoughts.

Ciao
xoxoxoxo
Sarah



***UPDATE***

I just got back from playing Night Tennis with my best friend. Everything goes back to normal when you are in sync with your best friend. I am so happy and blessed to have a wonderful friend in my life.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Life is Such a Beautiful World Wind

I could not be happier. Everything that made me feel as if I were drowning this semester has come full circle. I am at awe, and could not be more delighted on how much God has been doing this semester. I would do it all over tomorrow to be at the point where I am today. The tears are of pure happiness and surrender. I could not be more thrilled with the thoughts in my head.

I think I am suppose to be a missionary. My old advisor laid out a lifestyle for me. I did not like it at all. I do not want to work in a local & international company down the road for the rest of my life. I don't want missions to be just a summer project. I want it to be a lifestyle, exactly how it should be. I am aware that I could do this and work a job as well. I love the business world. It is an element of mine, but I love all the children that steal my heart. I love speaking Spanish, and seeing people's eyes light up.

I have talked to so many people recently at the place where I go swing dancing. Most of them want to be missionaries too. I love watching them talk about where their heart is at. I can relate to them when words cannot explain their thoughts on it all. I truly wish I could express the feeling and thoughts, yet there are simply no words.

 I have taken on this mind set of peacefulness. It is calming, and everything feels right. I have re-evaluated my friendships with people. I try to not grumble when people want me to listen because I realize that there is comfort in having someone to listen. Even if you don't take the advice.

I spent my late afternoon to mid evening sitting in a coffee shop today. I wanted to get out of my dorm,  and I felt like I just needed to go to this coffee shop. I talked to many different customers and staff. It was nice just being present and interacting with the people around me. I wish more people would speak to those around them. A common thing I have been getting recently is that I remind people of someone they know. I wish I could meet the person everyone thinks I am. I kind of regret not eating a real meal for supper. I had 2 cups of coffee and a cupcake.

I am ecstatic. I cannot wish for anything more perfect than the thought of being able to make missions a lifestyle. I do doubt it a little, but it goes away. I start to think about my family and friends, but I know it won't be a goodbye for forever. Plus I like planes, and I know I can always fly home if I ever need to do so.

Finals are coming up this week, so prayers would be greatly appreciated for everyone! :)

Thanks!
xoxoxoxo
Sarah