Sunday, December 11, 2011

God Can Use ANYONE, Even Me

I have been conflicted recently. I want to be a  leader for my College Ministry. It will take time and a lot of dedication from me. I know this. I just do not feel ready, but ready at the same time. As a servant of God, I know when He says go, I should go.

We have talked about Luke 1:39-56 in my small group and it was what my pastor spoke on today. It is a truly remarkable passage because an angel comes to Mary and says you are going to give birth to the Son of God. Mary was a virgin and engaged. Instead of saying no, my town will not believe that I am a virgin. I have a husband to be who will never marry me, I will be shunned. She said Yes. She said yes without doubting anything God's angel told her. She did not focus on herself, she focused on God. She also went to her cousin Elizabeth, who was much older. Even Elizabeth was going to have a baby despite her age. Both women were over joyed.

It is remarkable what God can do. In the Old Testament there is a book called Numbers. In Numbers Chapter 22, God uses a donkey to speak to Balaam. God also sends an angel to stop Balaam from going with the princes. The donkey saves Balaam's life. If God can use a farm animal, and make it speak the language we speak, I believe He could use me. "For Nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:38 NIV

I think I will take that Leadership role in my college ministry. I know it means staying where I am for college. It is not the end of the world if I do not get that International Business degree that I wanted. I can still work around the world, and still travel with out the word International on a piece of paper from a college.

For the moment I actually feel like I am following God's will. I just pray I am doing the right thing, and that I am doing it for God, not myself.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Scatter Brains After Finals & Other Random Adventures

Today is my last day that I have to take finals for my 1st semester in college. All I have to do is be at the Business School by 3pm, turn in my final, and I am done with my 1st semester! :) I am super excited!

I am still having some issues to deal with at college, but that is normal. I cannot possibly be everyones friend and not everybody is going to like me. That is a hard concept for me. I was not a "popular" kid in high school, but I was known around all grades. Teachers loved me, and I had an AWESOME group of friends who are still my good friends even though we are all at different colleges. :) I know that there were some girls that did not like me in high school or my church, but it did not bother me because I was happy with my support group. Now that my support group is not physically here, I feel like I have acquaintances on campus, not friends. It is just difficult because rumors are going around, and I cannot justify them because no one cares to listen to my side. Oh well, this is just the real world and I have to take a stance and show everyone who I am.

I apologize that I have not blogged recently, my life has been super stressful, but I am going to try to get better! :)

I am part of a college ministry called Ignite. They are such an awesome, Godly group of people to be around. It is comforting that I have friends who are now like a college youth group to me. Our  fearless leader....director.... asked me to be a leader next year. I have no idea if I am up for it, but I hope I choose the right decision. However, I intended to go transfer for Fall 2012...and if I want to be a leader in Ignite, I need to stay at the college that I am at. I wanted to transfer to pursue an International Business degree. But I am beginning to see that I like marketing. If I do stay to take on a leadership role I will plan on going into marketing.

I also have a friend in the hospital. He had a large non-cancerous mass removed from an area around is pancreas, he is getting better, but it is a slow process. So please say a prayer for my friend that he recovers quickly! :) Thanks!